Just a Jeju Girl

Well Yes, I AM a Swifty

<You’re on your own, kid>_always gives me courage to live, listens to it wheneve I’m scared about life.
”I didn’t choose this town, I dream of getting out.” ”You’re on your own, kid. You always have been.” ”I gave my blood sweat and tears for this I hosted parties and starved my body Like I'd be saved by a perfect kiss” ”Everything you lose is a step you take” ”Take the moment and taste it You've got no reason to be afraid You're on your own kid Yeah you can face this You're on your own kid You always have been”
<Marjorie>_“never be too kind, you forget to be clever. Never be too clever, you forget to be kind”
<fortnight>_”I love you, it’s ruining my life” “I hope you’re okay but you’re the reason.” “All my mornings are mondays stuck in an endless February. I took the miracle move-on drug. The effects were temporary.”
<Better Man>_when you’re in love with a person who cleary doesn’t deserve you, but you only wish that they were a better man who actually can deserve you but of course, you can never change a person, can you?
<I can do it with a broken heart>_”Cus I’m a real tough kid, I can handle this shit. They said “Babe, you gotta fake it till you make it” and I did. Lights, Camera, bitch, smile, Even when you wanna die” “I cry a lot but I am so productive, it’s an art.”
<Tolerate it>_”I know my love should be celebrated, But you tolerate it.”I take your indiscretions all in good fun” “I made you my temple, my mural, my sky. Now I’m begging for footnotes in the story of your life.”
<Happiness>_”There will be happiness after you, But there was a happiness because of you. Both of these things can be true. There is happiness.” “There’ll be happiness after me, But there was happiness because of me. Both of these things, I believe. There is happiness.”
 

Does traveling really expand our world?

https://www.mk.co.kr/en/society/11985142
 
Recently, I came across to this news saying that Korean women are among the most well-traveled women in the world. And honestly, I'm not surprised!
And as Korean, I could definitely can see why this was happening (although personally I can't fully believe this news). I think it's because there's a social / peer pressure that domestic tour is waste of time and money compare to what you can "learn" and "earn" from traveling abroad. And apparently, they say it's "waste of youth" if you're not traveling Europe?But I just wanted to ask again, like does traveling actually expand our world, or do we just move our bodies while our minds stay the same? And emphasizing that physical travel is not the only way to explore the world. What's really important, is not the distance, it's the depht of how present you are within yourself. Are you 100% standing firmly on the ground with your own feet? Are you fully communicating with yourself? Do you KNOW who you are before rushing to explore the world, maybe somewhere that has absolutely nothing to do with your life and your future?

They say people come and go… but why is it so hard?

The people who left my life,
and the people I have yet to meet—
where do passing connections
and lingering longing go?
My small wisdom cannot know.
The only thing I know
is how to keep living.
 
- yong pil Cho, <Song of the wind>
 
1. not every relationship ends because someone did something wrong
2. sometimes time itself changes the relationship
3. people grow in different directions
 
Love you! 

We ALL grew up in love

I guess at the end, what we really wanted is to be loved and to be understood by someone who matters.

NO emotion is Final

I’ve always felt things very deeply.
For most of my life, that meant emotional highs and lows that felt overwhelming — joy that felt infinite, sadness that felt permanent, anger that felt defining. As someone who is emotionally wired by nature, I used to believe that whatever I was feeling in the moment was the truth. And sometimes, I made decisions purely based on that truth — only to regret them later.
In this episode, I reflect on what it means to live as an emotional person in a world that often rewards stability and control. I talk about the mistakes I’ve made when I treated temporary emotions as permanent conclusions. I share a quote that stayed with me: “Life is about managing your emotions.” And it took me years to understand what that really meant.
Feeling annoyed doesn’t mean you don’t love someone. Feeling disappointed doesn’t mean everything is ruined. Feeling lost doesn’t mean you’ve failed. Emotions are real — but they are not final.
As a 27-year-old woman navigating work, friendships, and the dramas that come with personal relationships, I’ve learned a few small practices that help when emotions feel too loud. In this episode, I share a simple guide: check your body before your thoughts, sleep before you spiral, write before you react, and speak to someone who makes you feel safe.
This isn’t about becoming less emotional.It’s about becoming more responsible with your emotions.
If you’ve ever felt overwhelmed by what you feel — this episode is for you.
No emotion is final.And neither is the version of you that exists in that moment.

When challenges challenge you

Before I applied, the challenge challenged me first.
This episode is about the quiet resistance that comes before action — the hesitation, the shrinking, the voice that asks, “Who do you think you are?” When I considered applying to a large, well-established company, I didn’t feel excitement at first. I felt small. I wondered if it would be inappropriate, even disrespectful, for someone like me to apply. As if simply trying would expose something I wasn’t ready to face.
What I was really feeling wasn’t a lack of ability. It was impostor syndrome — the belief that I didn’t truly belong in the room I was standing outside of. The fear that my confidence was borrowed, that my place was temporary, that sooner or later someone would realize I wasn’t “enough.”
In this episode, I talk honestly about that feeling — the quiet self-doubt that doesn’t shout, but slowly convinces you to step back. I reflect on the difference between humility and self-erasure, between being realistic and being unnecessarily cruel to yourself. I also share the moment when my thinking shifted: when I realized that while applying felt like a possible disrespect to others, not trying at all felt like a much bigger disrespect to myself.
This episode isn’t about success or outcomes. It’s about permission. Permission to try before you feel ready. Permission to take up space before you feel certain. Permission to move forward even while your confidence lags behind your courage.
If you’ve ever felt intimidated by an opportunity, paralyzed by self-doubt, or unsure whether you’re “allowed” to want more — this episode is for you.
Sometimes, the hardest part of a challenge isn’t the challenge itself.It’s believing that you’re allowed to face it.

Is being kind a losing game?

Referenced TED talk in this episode <Are you a giver or taker? by Adam Grant> : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YyXRYgjQXX0
 
In this episode, I start with a comment my supervisor casually made about me — that I seem smart, but if you really look closely, I’m kind of a fool. He probably didn’t mean it seriously. But the words stayed with me longer than I expected.
Because sometimes, I wonder the same thing about myself.
In a world that rewards strategy, calculation, and self-interest, kindness can feel like a disadvantage. Being considerate. Giving people the benefit of the doubt. Choosing empathy over efficiency. At times, it feels like choosing the losing side — or at least the slower one.
This episode is not about proving that kindness is morally superior, or pretending that being nice always leads to good outcomes. Instead, it’s an honest reflection on the quiet doubts that come with being a giver. The moments when you ask yourself: Am I being kind, or am I just bad at protecting my own interests? Would my life look different if I were a little more calculated? Is this world ultimately built for people who know how to take, rather than give?
I also reflect on a talk that explores the idea of givers, takers, and matchers — and how those who give the most often lose the hardest, but sometimes also win the most, in the long run.
This episode is for anyone who has ever felt smart, capable, and thoughtful — yet somehow always a step behind. For those who are tired of choosing softness in a hard system, but still aren’t ready to let it go.
Maybe kindness isn’t a losing game.Maybe it’s just a longer one.

Why do I feel so stupid?

I think it's really hard for grown ups living in 2026, to be fully conscious, have the awarness, creatical thinking without these tools, which is 1. Smartphone 2. Computer 3. Internet 4. AI, myself included of course. And I had so much emotional burden to organise my plans like the full time job + extra big-scale project that I'm recently working on. And I became even more  dependent on AI cus simply, it's so helpful and intelligent! 
I'm sure there's lot of people out there who has a similar concern about the modern technology, and hope our listeners enjoyed this week's episode. & of course, will have an excellent weekend! :D

Appreciation of Uncertainty

Everytime big or small of things happen to me, it's hard to get rid of the feeling that 'uncertainty is overwhelming' but after I encountered one specific episode of the podcast, <School of Greatness>, I came upon with a expression, "Apprecitation of Uncertainty"
So sorry I couldn't find a link of that episode, but bascially she was trying to say that people should have more apprecitation of uncertainty because life of full of uncertainties and unexpected moments. So rather than being annoyed or neglecting it, apprectiating is the key to accept what's happening to you and to be able to figure out the next step. 
 
Hope you liked the episode! Thanks for listening and hope to see you again soon! :)

What I learned and know about friendship

One of my favourite things about my life is that I have amazing group of friends. They make me want to be a better person for them, they make me laugh, they entertain me, they makes me cry when I need a really good cry. My experience of friendship has changed darastically from adolescence to adult years. And personally I loved adult friendships compare to my adolescence friendships and I wanted to share my thoughts about that. Also, I wanted to share about my 3 rules of friendship that helped me alot to make new friends and maintaining old friends of course. And those are...
Don’t get too close too quickly.. If you open up too much, overshares, it’s very unlikely that friendship will last in a long run
Expect nothing from them. When you’re giving/prividing something do it without expecting a reply or expect it will return
Someone who stays will stay, but someone who will leave will leave no matter how hard you try
People comes and goes. Reality hurts but it’s okay
Thank you so much for listening again, and happy new year! best of wishes and sending lots of love! :)